Will I Ever Get Control Of My

His Door Is Closed Behind Me. It's Staying Closed. He's Letting Me Go. I Think I've Made Myself Very Clear, But No Ones Stepping Forward To Stop Me. A Lot Of You Cared, Just Not Enough. And That...that Is What I Needed To Find Out. And I Did Find Out. And I'm Sorry.

Justin, Honey, You Were My Very First Kiss. My Very First Hand To Hold. But You Were Nothing More Than An Average Guy. And I Don't Say That To Be Mean- I Don't. There Was Just Something About You That Made Me Need To Be Your Girlfriend To This Day I Don't Know Exactly What That Was. But It Was There.. And It Was Amazingly Strong. -thirteen Reasons Why

Whenever I'm Out Late She Makes A Sandwich For My School Lunch. I Always Protest And Tell Her Not To, Saying I'll Make My Own When I Get Home. But She Likes It. She Says It Reminds Her Of When I Was Younger And Needed Her.

Will I Ever Get Control Of My Life? Will I Always Be Shoved Back And Pushed Around By Those I Trust?

Hannah Wasn't My First Kiss, But The First Kiss That Mattered: The First Kiss With Someone Who Mattered. (pg 222).