The Sexual Act Is In Time What

At Man's Core There Is A Voice That Wants Him Never To Give In To Fear. But If It Is True That In General Man Cannot Give In To Fear, At The Very Least He Postpones Indefinitely The Moment When He Will Have To Confront Himself With The Object Of His Fear... When He Will No Longer Have The Assistance Of Reason As Guaranteed By God, Or When He Will No Longer Have The Assistance Of God Such As Reason Guaranteed. It Is Necessary To Recoil, But It Is Necessary To Leap, And Perhaps One Only Recoils In Order To Leap Better.

What Causes [fragmentation] If Not A Need To Act That Specializes Us And Limits Us To The Horizon Of A Particular Activity? Even If It Turns Out To Be For The General Interest (which Generally Isn't True), The Activity That Subordinates Each Of Our Aspects To A Specific Result Suppresses Our Being As An Entirety. Whoever Acts Substitutes A Particular End For What He Or She Is, As A Total Being.

The Circumstances Of My Life Are Paralyzing.

When My Face Is Flushed With Blood, It Becomes Red And Obscene. It Betrays At The Same Time, Through Morbid Reflexes, A Bloody Erection And A Demanding Thirst For Indecency And Criminal Debauchery.

I Remain In Intolerable Non-knowledge, Which Has No Other Way Out Than Ecstasy Itself.