I'm Impressed With A 90 Year Old

It's Weird, I Was Such A Survivor And So Wanted To Be A Part Of Life While I Was Trying To Snuff Out The Life That Was Inside Of Me. I Had This Duality Of Trying To Kill Myself With Drugs, Then Eating Really Good Food And Exercising And Going Swimming And Trying To Be A Part Of Life. I Was Always Going Back And Forth On Some Level.

I've Wanted To Feel Pleasure To The Point Of Insanity. They Call It Getting High, Because It's Wanting To Know That Higher Level, That Godlike Level. You Want To Touch The Heavens, You Want To Feel Glory And Euphoria, But The Trick Is It Takes Work. You Can't Buy It, You Can't Get It On A Street Corner, You Can't Steal It Or Inject It Or Shove It Up Your Ass, You Have To Earn It.

I Knew There Was Never Anyone To Blame When People Get Into Drugs. They're Always Responsible For Their Own Behavior, And It's Not The Dealer, It's Not The Friend, It's Not The Bad Influence, It's Not The Childhood.

We Used To Fight To The Death But We Tried The Experiment, Rolled The Dice And Like We Got.

I Walked Away A Little Disheartened, Thinking, 'oh Well. I Came A Long Way To Meet The Wizard Of Oz, But I Guess I Won't. Such Is Life.